1. I ignore important tasks when I drink, then in the morning I feel terrible that I didn’t get things done.
2. I sleep like crap. I wake up at 2-3 am – then it takes me ages to fall back asleep. I end up tired in the morning and not able to give my best at all.
3. Besides being tired I generally feel like crap. Not really hung over, but not good.
4. It’s just throwing money down the drain- or my throat.
5. I end up angry at myself when I drink for choosing to drink when I know it’s an awful decision. Waking up berating yourself is a horrible way to start your day. I end up starting my day feeling defeated and guilty. It rarely improves from there.
6. When I don’t drink, I feel better physically in the morning. I rarely had awful hangovers, but just felt blah.
7. When I don’t drink, I wake up in a better space mentally, which starts my day so much better.
8. When I don’t drink, I think more clearly throughout the day. I feel more in control.
9. When I don’t drink I feel proud of myself and more like a functioning,responsible adult.
10. I sleep better and wake up feeling refreshed instead of ick.
So no alcohol today. So far, so good. Of course it is 8:45 am and I have never been a morning drinker. Now I do love a mimosa, but I only indulge in them during the occasional brunch or Christmas or Easter morning. So I guess we are jumping the gun saying we have a sober day. The real challenge will come about 4 or 5pm when my brain will REALLY want that first glass of wine. I suppose I should plan now for something to distract me. It is hard because I drink at home. I don’t go to bars or out with friends, or even have friends over to drink. My husband doesn’t even drink. O, that is to say he drinks very occasionally and like a normal person. He can have one drink. Just one. It baffles me. Though he has been less than helpful when it comes to stopping. Our exchanges go like this –
Me: (morning)”Hon, I really want to stop drinking, so don’t buy me wine.”
Also him when I come home that evening: ” I bought you wine! I poured you a glass, it’s on the counter.”
I need to find something to distract me when I really want to give in, because I know that one glass will lead to two then 4. I would go for a walk but its supposed to be raining. I think the museum will be open. That’s an option. Or I could go to the library to work, but it’s President’s Day so they might be closed. Maybe I’ll start yoga even though my knee doesn’t bend enough to do a lot of the poses correctly. It might be good.